....that heartbreak is such a bitch...


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i got in the program btw. woohoo. my life officially ends aug.27th, since that's when school starts.

days pass by so quickly, you don't even realize that you've stepped into the new year already. yes my friends, it's already 2007. and its just now that i have updated my blog. forgive me. *sigh* i don't have any excuse for my laziness. but...i dont regret one bit of it. i enjoyed just chilling on the couch, watching tv, and sleeping all day long. there should be more days like those...but it does get tiring after awhile. i am here in janice's new apartment and although she is asleep right now, i am not complaining. i don't have any reason to. this is a good change for me. yesterday i went back to work already..and although there were some parts of the day that were tiring, it still felt worth it to go back to work. i didn't feel like waking up early though but nevertheless that didn't stop me from going to work.

i just finished watching breakfast at tiffany's. its the first time i watched it. audrey hepburn is beautiful, isn't she?  i love her style.. she's very sophisticated. the movie was not bad. icould relate. maybe everybody could relate to it at some level you know? i didn't know that moon river was sung in this movie too. i am totally in love with this song now!

Moon river, wider than a mile,
I'm crossing you in style some day.
Oh, dream maker, you heart breaker,
wherever you're going I'm going your way.
Two drifters off to see the world.
There's such a lot of world to see.
We're after the same rainbow's end--
waiting 'round the bend,
my huckleberry friend,
Moon River and me.


~*~

poetic moment

"brick wall"


i type these words
trying to find sense in my thoughts
searching for feelings
of happiness, loneliness... 
just searching deep in side
for true, honest feelings
of the day
of the time
of the moment
of my situation

i listen to Moon River
and admire Audrey Hepburn's beauty
there's so much inspiration
to write lyrics and poems

i turn head, 
and look to my right
i see grass, plants and flowers in pots
i look around,
see vases of all colors, shapes and sizes
a podium with the remains of a smoke
blinds on windows
on a neighbor's home

and i stare on a wall
a red brick wall
and this is where i shall stop.
this is where i shall end.

~*~

i want a dog!!!

i miss having a dog..i miss Britney..she was my first dog, a mixed breed bought in Pampanga..up to now i really don't know what exactly shes mixed from but she's real pretty..she's chocolate brown with light (yellowish) parts on her foot, chest and above her eyebrows...i felt so bad when she didn't come back one day..i really cried. =( i remember the first time she came home, and i was looking at her face that was so adorable...i couldn't forget how happy i was when i saw her and find out that she was mine...I initially wanted to name her Aussie but MOM insisted that we name her "Britney" coz Britney Spears was such a hit then. haha. well of course my mom won, and i guess the name fit the dog better. Britney was so spoiled to me and everybody else that i think she didn't know she was a dog until she gave birth to 5 pups...and another 5 after that.

i've been thinking lately what kind of dog i want if ever i'll get one. on the top of my list is a Labrador. i want a chocolate one or a yellow one. they are smart dogs, and good swimmers too! only they can get big though... Anyway, the next in line is a Dachschund. It could be a miniature or the original size..it doesn't really matter, just as long as its not one of those hairy dachshunds..just the smooth ones. Ranking 3rd in my choices would be the cute, big eyed, short and stout fiesty Pug. =)

i know its mad expensive to have a dog here, and yes, i do have to pay rent for them in the apartment...plus the cost of food and to maintain a dog is really over the top..but..im just so lonely nowadays that i want companionship in my home (aside from my parents, ofcourse)...i want to go home and find a very adorable and lovable dog excited to see me and be with me and won't get annoyed when i talk weird (baby-like) to them..*sigh*

...i wish it wouldn't go away! it's been 3 days since the SF and parts of my body are still sore and my voice is still gone (it's all good..like i said, i sound so sexy! and i love it! haha). muchos props to the Sports Fest held in Ft. Worth (or was it Arlington?) last Monday. I couldn't stop cheering for the Houston peeps...one word to describe the players: VICIOUS!! yep yep...they were all determined to win, and they did! Houston Locale was overall champion! Congratulations to all the players..y'all led the team to victory! go Houston!

[[rrrrewind>>

Saturday eve:

i couldn't sleep. so excited for the SF that i think i packed too much stuff. (which i did) prolly slept around 1ish after packing and repacking, and then packing again.

Sunday:

woke up at 530 am! yup..but i got out of bed around 7. i had to do some last minute repacking (again!) and then ate my breakie and lunch too. was able to chat with some ppl before i left. blah blah blah...went to diamond shamrock where i was to meet keen's family. rode with them in their nice durango. keen and darlene was there. non stop man! but its all good, they made the trip fun! after awhile they both fell asleep..so i was able to sleep too. yay. woke up when we were near the courtyard marriot hotel. when i came i kept on switching rooms...from keen's room to abby's room and finally ended up in my tita's and tito's room. its all good. everyone kept on offering me food.it's like every room had a buffet! haha. i was stuffed. after awhile i went swimming..mostly binhi's were there. it honestly felt incredible just being in the pool deck..the chlorine, the pool...brought back so many swimming memories to me...

i took a break, and then later on went swimming with the kadiwa's. yup the binhi's were still there too. major fun! a couple of hours later i went up to my room..Eddy asked me if i wanted to go and grab a bite with them but...i didn't go coz i was *shy*. yeah i know, im not normally like that but still...the houston crowd just makes me unbelievably intimidated coz all of them are so close with each other....PLUS i am allergic to chlorine so i gotta take a real good long shower to take it all off. (ironic isn't it? i've been a swimmer for more than 13 years, yet i am allergic to chlorine. haha) yeah so i just stayed in the room, watched Spiderman 2 and talked to a couple of people on the phone. slept around 11ish.

Monday

Woke up @ 615 am. talked to mom on the phone and then afterwards took a shower. fixed all my stuff and went to keen's room coz i was riding with them again. we were late already..so we just got mcdonald's for breakie. we missed the parade and opening ceremony but we were there for the rest of the day. i played vbo..it was outdoors, and the heat was killing me! kept on going in and out of the gym to watch the other games, and also to hang out with my friends from different locales. it was great seeing them all. and meeting new people too...i was real tired at the end of the day. Jayvin rode with us on the way home, and we talked endlessly! it was cool. we were listening to old school songs (Eheads man, the best!). Ka rolly & ka irene has good taste in music. lol. my folks picked me up by Starbucks and then we went home. told them a few stories only coz i was so tired and it was late...had the shower i was waiting for the whole day and then i just crashed on my bed.

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I'm glad we got to move here in Huntsville, coz now my family and I get to attend church regularly and we get to attend the Southern Midwest District activities. it was an awesome weekend, and im looking forward to other activities of the locale and the district. i wouldn't miss it. i'll be there ~ fo sho!

...and already I feel that my prayers has been answered. I feel so blessed!

The drive coming down to school was good. I was rockin to my tunes and thankfully no one that I know saw me. I was able to find a good parking spot, and I was early for my a&p class. Just as what my professor has told our class, she will have a question and answer portion before she starts lecture, just to see if we all did our homework. It's a good thing that I reviewed last night, even with all that drama that happened (no need to elaborate on that), a number of things actually stuck in my brain. no teflon material up there now. lol. anyway, i was able to answer the questions that she asked me. (whew!) good session today.  i pretty much understood the lessons and lab wasn't hard at all. i proceeded to the bookstore to buy my scantrons with a classmate. after that we both went to the library, so I could study and she could make copies. I was able to see Abby from church and we sat together in the lib. After about an hour, I went to my Speech class. This is were i almost cried coz I just feel God's love, you know? so yeah, Stacy, my classmate in Speech, gave me her --wat she calls it--"old" lab manual and study guide. It's exactly the one that we're using right now. no pressures, no need to return, and its for free! i thought i had to pay for it or something but she really did give it for free. can you believe that! i just saved myself a good $170++. yay! plus her seat mate Wendi is gonna give me her old a& p books..w/c is good for reference. sweet! i feel like heaven's gate opened and the blessings outpoured today....i just hope it won't close coz i'll be damned if it did.... lol.

plus...I'll be going to SF up in Fort Worth this weekend. hopefully I can play V-bo (volley ball) and hopefully I won't do any splits when i play. (yeah im scared my pants or shorts will rip!) I'm excited to stay in a hotel where most of the ppl i know are staying there..its just like old times when the  the LSGH Oysters went to Hong Kong for a competition. that was fun. those were good memories. and i'm sure this weekend will be like that too, or maybe even better! I can't wait! :)

so yeah...its all good. :)

Please pray for those who were affected by Hurricane Katrina. If you read/watch the news, chaos is arising in the New Orleans Superdome and situations are slowly declining...they lack food, water, & shelter...anything you can donate, please do so..

go to news.yahoo.com they've got links there on how to help the affected people and you can also be updated of their situation.

kung magagawa ko lang to....

Dear God,

Thank you for giving me the chance to study this Fall. I thought you're gonna let me rest again this semester and make me gain weight as I sit my ass infront of the computer, the t.v. and the oven (watching my banana cake bake).

I started school this week, and I am really having fun. My professors are real cool. My classes seem to be pretty challenging but I know I'll get through this...

But I need your help...I need to buy books...Please send me $226.00 for my Anatomy and Physiology books (text+lab), $76.00 for my Psychology 2314 book, and $65 for my Speech 1318 book. = $367.00 total for books only. If you can also pay for my tuition, it's around $500 due next month.

I prefer cash..money order, I'll accept.. Check, I'll accept (pay to cash or my mom).

Gas prices went up .20cents this week. Please send extra money for gas.  and my lunch money too...my school has Starbucks inside the campus. I miss drinking the coffee, eating the cookies and cakes, and of course drinking those venti-sized frapuccinos. sige na nga...i'll settle for tall nalang..just so i can taste it...

Okay well I got to go...please bless my mom, my dad, and all of my friends who truly care and love me.

I love you...Thank you very much for everything!

AMEN

love without trust : is that possible? 

love without trust = like nalang ???  

today wasnt so bad after all. i went to school and was able to change my sched and add 1 more class. it was just tiring..with all the driving and the heat. makes me wonder how im gonna survive p.i.'s weather if i go back home.

im going to bed or else i wont be able to wake up ealry again tomorrow.